9 October 2015

Park Seo Joon

Lately I am so into Park Seojoon! He is so good looking. I have expected he would make it big after Bang Yong Kuk's MV! He had such many good reviews after the MV! In fact he's better than everyone expected~! Anyways, there's so many idol dating news and scandals lately. Hot couples, sweet and lovely ones. Sigh, when is my turn? I want a Korean boyfriend! HAHA! I know it's impossible since I am here. The Korean guys in Malaysia is either too old or too young. Barely meet anyone around my age though.

Slowly seeing the result. Feeling happy. Hope to see drastic one in a niche of time! I really hope so. It's coming to the end of the year. So yeah, I need to make it. This year has been a tough year. Probably the toughest in my life though I haven't make it through even half way of my career. I hope I have already crossed it and it's probably one of the end of my darkest life. I would flash back but I always remind myself not to. It's to sad to remember what has happened during my 2015 year. From every angle and I hope time would get better soon. It will. 

All kind of people exists in the world. I wouldn't say I am not one of them. Maybe to some people point of view, I am weird but at least, at some point of my weakness, I admit I am have this weakness and try my best not to show it. As of last time, I would. I have controlled myself a lot ever since. Cause I know how bad it is the karma. So please do good as much as you can, as much as you are living right now cause you do not know what you have done in the past life. Some people may not believe so, but still being good is still better than being bad. some people don't even realise their mistakes and repeat them over and over. I have seen such person, in fact tons of them lately. It's just really sad and devastating. I hope the following year, there will be better person around me. Maybe, at least someone I can count on and trust-able the least. 

It's TGIF! Happy weekends guys!

8 October 2015

Exhausted and tired

I am feeling exhausted and tired today. Feeling so moody as well. Messed with me at the wrong time today. I don't know what's wrong. PMS just over. Why am I feeling so today? Anyway, I feel like getting another piercing this weekend. That's gonna be it. I am gonna do it no matter how much I am scared of the pain. 

Yeap, I have received my confirmation finally after two years of working. I have never received once before. HAHA! This time, I am willing to accept the confirmation but not running away from it. Hopefully this is close to my goals. I am thankful you're willing to teach boss. For willing to learn, I know it's my benefit, that's why I am so. I am looking forward and up ahead for my future as I still consider myself as fresh. No more after another year. I will have my increment as well. That feels good but which means more work to do as warned. 

T-Shirt just had a soft launched. Guess, this weekend I need to find more better ways to promote them. Oh please do well. I need to earn some savings. Oh it will! Be positive! 

7 October 2015

Bad Lead, sadly

Sick of the lead, not someone you can learn much from, totally in fact. That's sad though. No matter how eager I want to finish a complete paper, I feel too sleepy to concentrate, God knows why. It's successfully and tomorrow it's gonna be a little tough but I need to fight this through! Don't spoilt it please. It's raining, the best time to sleep. 

Probably one of my favorites. Best thing about updating with my iPad there's lots of pictures to post. 

6 October 2015

Getting Started

Oh well, I was suppose to start my TOPIK yesterday but I was so tired that I only started a little. To finish two year papers a day is hard since there is two papers in a year. I will try my best still. Seems hard though. I always don't get enough sleep thanks to those bastards every night making noise. When on earth can I have a good sleep? Till the day they get lost from the house? I really wish one day. Almost with a 2 at their age but still a scum bag. What happened to these days teenage? Inconsiderate and worthless. 

Hopefully, today will mark the first day. Let's try to finish the papers within a month, even so the latest by mid of next month. I wanna revise back my old books by end of the year and begin TOPIK preparation by early next year. Hopefully my plan works well! Lots to do next year. It's not just saying not but action already. Tick tock Tick tock.

I lost motivation to work thinking about my goals. I know I can't so I am finding it back. I need to save not spend!

5 October 2015


After two weeks, I am finally able to clean my room and the house! Oh gosh, feel so much better now that the house is cleaner except the mess at part of the house as there is new cabinets currently under construction by my mom. Also, some packing to do. Done my part at least. Clean is back to neat now. I am finally able to start my TOPIK peacefully today. Let's get things heat up! Exciting! Also, continue my plan. One month is actually enough if I am strict to myself. So let's make it full week. Definitely, there will be quick result. I need to refrain myself and be strong and persistent. Otherwise, I will waste my time. Already two more months to 2016. I need to succeed it already! Oh gosh!

Finally T-Shirt design ready and launching in a while. Hopefully it will do well. Will come out some new designs soon. Here you go to have a look. 

The two above is the current finalised design. Same colour comes in two different shirt colours which is black and white. You may place your order if you are reading this blog! Just drop me a message at Facebook/Twitter as badge on the left side of my blog. 


4 October 2015

Park Seo Joon & Park Yoohwan

Finally some drama that caught my attention. Park Seojoon is so good looking and tall! He's really good at acting though. I am glad that he's able to make it through from Bang Yong Kok's solo MV. He's awesome as he is now. He's my TYPE! <3 font="" nbsp="">

I seriously didn't realist that Park Yoohwan was in the drama. I wish he had more roles in fact more major roles like his brother. He's acting is pretty okay too though and most importantly he is cute! <3 a="" able="" actors="" am="" been="" both="" drama="" favourite="" font="" has="" i="" in="" it="" most="" my="" nbsp="" see="" since="" some="" time="" to="">

My drama lists is getting shorter. Update has been slow lately but I still have pile of old dramas to watch still. Wonder if I can finish them today. I think it's impossible though. Just want an empty list on my tab.

Too much for the past two days though. Therefore, halt for the rest of the week now. I need a quick result. No more excuses please.

Finally I am able to pack my room and done with it! Next, would need the clean the floor later today. Oh gosh. FINALLY!

3 October 2015

Never the Same Anymore

It would never be the same any more. Once, the faith and trust has lost, that's it. It's hard to gain them back. Time? I am not sure if time can even heal though. It's too deep to heal. I have stopped thinking about it and it popped up. I don't know if it's genuine or sincere anymore or just an act of concern. I really don't know. I don't feel safe and secure at all. Not at all. I don't feel like approaching or keep in contact. All these feelings and thoughts came in a go. Why? There must be a reason. I don't wanna know. I wanna ignore it. Don't let it shake your heart and decision. 

Forget the negatives, Let's finish summarising it today and pack the room! Lot's of shows to watch and designs to do! Let's keep it going. It's gonna be good. Forgot the bads and remember the goods. To keep in mind to feel better. 

For the period to those who helped my and be there to listen, thank you, sincerely. I really appreciate it. Never thought I still have you guys around after that incident. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

2 October 2015

Long Nap

I barely take naps but today, I was really tired that I nap for almost 2 hours. Feeling awake now. It has been so long since I nap so long. Feeling old now. I always say this, so much to do, yet so little time I have. I wish time was longer. Sadly, it's not.

Off day is nice. Nothing to be frustrated over. Peaceful. I wish there's more holiday for labour too, like school holiday. HAHA! but I guess it's impossible.

Off to a day trip in Ipoh tomorrow and I am not sure to go for the guitar trial class tomorrow. Hmm. 

1 October 2015

Rest Day

I finally get to have a rest day tomorrow. Has been an exhausting week since Sunday! But I still have class to attend in the morning. Has been some time since I went for a karaoke session. Maybe tomorrow midnight if Saturday plan is not on. Can't wait!

Sleeping late and waking up early is so not awesome. Feeling tired now. My eye bags are crazy! Yesterday succeed it! Today I need to, till I obtain the right figure! I NEED TO! Drag and drag for a long time. This is too much. DAMN!

The T-Shirt design and printing came out nice. Really satisfied with the outcome. Looking forward to begin with the business soon. Need to come out with more designs too. Guess I need to explore adobe for a good purpose, need to at least spend a day for it. 

That's it for the DAY.


30 September 2015


This is depressing. I am back to normal after a month effort. This is damn fast but to achieve it is damn slow. Now, I am only left with a month. What the fuq? I seriously need to pay attention to every single details and steps from now on every single day and seconds. I only know I keep saying so but still breaking the rules. So fcuked up. I am so angry with myself. Tonight will determine everything! PLEASE !

Today is the last day of September! Time passed.