I was so close yesterday of succeeding it but I did not make it at the end, I shouldn't have started this bad habit and now it's so hard to stop! I am totally regretting it since it's affecting me badly, physically and mentally. Regardless with all these excuses, I still need to make it happen day by day, reminding myself second by second, I need to stop immediately. Don't drag anymore. It's dangerous! Oh please Jerica!
I went to the dentist again yesterday morning and ditch the dentist again cause I need to work and their service is getting slower and slower though. They used to be fast or maybe because I am doing scaling, they took some time to reach me. I went there twice and I ditch the place twice, without getting my RM2 refund. It's just RM2 so I didn't bother but I guess I would to to the one that opens on weekend on the following weekend since this weekend I will be outstation. I actually wanted to use my leaves to go to the dentist, but since I am going for a good hunt this weekend, it will make no difference after cleaning it so yeah, might as well after I come back from my trip. Sounds more legit though. I don't think I am able to visit that clinic anymore with the slow service now. I think I wouldn't touch my weekday study and normal schedule anymore. Would do most things on weekends now since I don't put any books schedule on weekend. Outings on weekends only as well. That's the usual thing lately. So next month onwards, this would carry on. Lot's of things though. I am in the midst of preparing lots of things for March! I am working on my bad habit, I need to fix it before next week. I need to. Small portions are good enough, don't worry too much, don't over do it anymore!
After this weekend, it's gonna be a busy weekend again. I arranged a meet up finally for the group next Friday. I need to go to the dentist in the morning, early in the morning. Since it's the government's, I will assume that I would need to wait and wait. So after that, I would do some test on my blood and some ECG test. Hopefully by then my new policy has enforced. If there's some time I would wanna do some blood donation. Everything is in order and at the right time. Otherwise, I would just donate on Sunday though. Fingers crossed by then I am already stopping it. Wait, I need to, regardless. This is so crucial for me to start already! I actually thought of applying leave on this Thursday but I think I can't waste it. I need it for March though I would like to apply badly.
The trip is ready, accommodation and places ticked and done! I think definitely I would be the driver for the trip cause I can't trust anyone else's driving skills at home. I am actually quite excited for the trip though cause it has been some time since I go for a trip with le family. I think it would be good, since it would e food hunting and some places to visit. I realised there's actually not many place to visit in Penang though. I have been to most places that I wanted to go. It's just temples mostly there and museums. My next destination badly would be Langkawi! I wanted to go there for a very long time but didn't get the chance to go. No companion and it's quite pricey too. I just feel like going to so many places for a holiday. It has been quite a long time. I miss my Penang and Melaka trip from last year already. Those days.
Lately the person keep looking for me, I just don't feel good about it cause everytime when he pops up suddenly or out of the blue, he definitely served a purpose. Otherwise, he wouldn't popped out at all. Yes, this person treats everyone around him as an item, since he has it all. He can afford it. That's sad though, that what makes him a lonely person. Good friends would leave and those who stays, well, I am not sure. I am already very disappointed with this person so probably most things he does seems bad to me or I have been closing one eye for some time, maybe. I will try my best to think the positive still. I need to be good this year right. Chant song is playing in my room right now, everyday. I am thinking if I should leave it on during my vacation. The electric bill would be crazy. Let's see how during then.
It's not easy to update a good resume for me since my English is not that great and that's why it's taking up time. It's also because I am someone with experience now, it's even harder. The other time it was easier because I was a fresh graduate. But now it's different. I need to write it professionally. I can do this babeh. So many things to accomplish. FIGHTING! POSITIVE!
What a life. I hope there's gonna be more pictures for my Penang trip!