28 May 2017

Sensitive and decisions.

I have so much playing on my mind, I have to watch with most of the stuffs I say. I can't take care of everyone's feeling but I just care what would people said and think of me, I scared I said the wrong things that I could offended them. Some people just show their feelings obviously. I did it last two days, probably I shouldn't have said the sentence, the expression changed right away. This is the second time I realised this mistake. It's already to tiring that I have to take care of everything's feeling. I just care too much. Besides, I am thinking of accepting workplace that is not so convenient for me. Shah Alam or Sri Petaling? Both places is not accessible by public transport. One of them is far. I don't know if I should pursue or not. Location is an important thing for me. I don't have a car. And I would purchase one, I would add on to my burden. I really don't know what to do. I don't know what to decide. I scared to miss the opportunity, or missed it but I don't have a car. Tell me what to do? Am I thinking too much creating problem for myself ? Why do I always have this kind of thoughts. One of it has a pretty good boss from the appearance. I felt like he invited me for an interview was trying to help me out. I have a soft heart. It's just a try out I really didn't expect to receive an invitation. From his questions, I could have guess some of this personal traits. Should I accept and go for it? Should I let it slide and pursue something that I would enjoy? But will that come instead? Should I look for someone that helps me or should I just for some environment that I am not sure if I would have a good one but something that I think I might enjoy? What should I do? Should I attend it or let it slip it off? What would you do? I can't be picky at this point. Should I just grab any opportunity? 

If my dad is around, probably I wouldn't have so much to worry about. I know, I am on my own now can't always depend on my parents. I am on my own now. Just that, at least, I have someone to count on when I feel burden. Someone there to advice me when I needed. I have so much stuffed in me. It's not I don't want to blare it out, just that there's no one appropriate for me to do so. No one could lead or advice me, a father figure that could lead me. Hold my hand and tell me that everything is gonna be alright. Yes, I am the family kind. I love feel the family love. It has been some time since I have been to hawkers to try out new food, it has been so long since I have been to a restaurant for celebrations. It has been some times we always have a cake during someone's birthday. It has been some time since someone would call me if I need to lift. It has been some time since I seen packed food on the table once I wake up or back from home. It has been some time since I seen movie as a complete family eating popcorn. Whoever would taught a person could leave soon. Life is so fragile and unexpected. I need to be grateful with everything that I have now. Some could probably be worse that I could be in. I hope in near future I could be someone that my mum can rely on and count on. I felt it's really heartbreaking to see mum still need to work even at this age. I am still at the verge. I am climbing up the ladder to higher place. Just wait for me mother, be healthy please. As for me too. Everything with an effort. I actually feel much better blogging this out. Looking for a really suitable person to have a talk to talk and truthful talk is not easy. I hope I am able to find one, one day. 

Some times, it's just tired to carry a strong mask at home, a weak mask with friends, a poker face mask at work, a fake mask during interviews and meetups. I to want to be at a point just to be myself, a time for myself. Alone, to reflect myself. I CAN DO IT! BE POSITIVE REMEMBER! Can't always care for so many people's feeling. Learn to be carefree and not to bother so much. It's tiring and none of my business. Since the breadwinner is not around, I am half of it now. The lead, the stand strong. That's why I always like to mix with adults, lots of advices. I guess I should continue back this habit. I have stopped this habit for some time and I feel one kind though. I am too easily emotionally affected. Adults teaches me a lot of things that I wish to know about life, good advices. I miss those moments. Good times don't last long and bad times comes for us to learn and grown up to be mature. I am still in the progress. I am still learning, to train the inner me!  FIGHTING! I wanna be strong from the inner like my dad too, who cares that I am a lady, who said I can't ? I need some time to change myself so! Be wise and professional! Pressure = improvement. 

When will I able to find a Mr. Right?! Someone that I could lean on whenever I feel stressed or stuffed. A comfort and safe feeling whenever I need it. AHHHHH!!!! I really need a warm and lovely hug right now and tell me "it's alright, I am here. You're safe." That's why up till now I would prefer some guys that is much older than me. Mature and experience, I have an interest is always due to some reason. Now I know clearly exactly why I restrict to so. A very valid reason. That's just insane. I know that guys has their ego, even me myself but yeah. I can handle my ego not sure if some is able to. I know when is the right time to use it. That's just part of life. AJA-AJA! FIGHTING! 


27 May 2017

More to Come.

I went for an interesting and meaningful interview last two days. Actually I just try out but did not expect to get a call from them. Though they operate like an American company but the company environment is a little not what I am looking for though. The place is not so convenient as well but I did got a lot of advice from the director of the company that interviewed me as a businessman point of view. That interview actually enlighten me pretty much though. I am not sure to say if I am glad or not but yeah at least I have some hope and inspiration now. I wanna move on, feeling positive and trying to hunt for a better one now. I can make it, I can do it. I will make it. Life would be good after a hardship. That's is the most important fact. I need to STOP I need to STOP. I need to finish, I need to finish. 

For Muslims, the Ramadhan festive is on the way. I would like to wish all my Muslim friend Happy Ramadhan! Here some information about the festive. Credits to Wikipedia, my walking dictionary! Be healthy and be safe! 

Ramadan (/ˌræməˈdɑːn/Arabicرمضان‎‎ RamaḍānIPA: [ramaˈdˤaːn];[note 1] alsoromanized as RamazanRamadhan, or Ramathan) is the ninth month of theIslamic calendar,[3] and is observed by Muslims worldwide as a month of fasting(Sawm) to commemorate the first revelation of the Quran to Muhammad according to Islamic belief.[4][5] This annual observance is regarded as one of the Five Pillars of Islam.[6] The month lasts 29–30 days based on the visual sightings of thecrescent moon, according to numerous biographical accounts compiled in thehadiths.[7][8]
The word Ramadan comes from the Arabic root ramiḍa or ar-ramaḍ, which means scorching heat or dryness.[9] Fasting is fardh (obligatory) for adult Muslims, except those who are suffering from an illness, travelling, are elderly, pregnant,breastfeedingdiabetic or going through menstrual bleeding.[10] Fasting the month of Ramadan was made obligatory (wājib) during the month of Sha'ban, in the second year after the Muslims migrated from Mecca to MedinaFatwas have been issued declaring that Muslims who live in regions with a natural phenomenon such as the midnight sun or polar night should follow the timetable of Mecca,[11] but the more commonly accepted opinion is that Muslims in those areas should follow the timetable of the closest country to them in which night can be distinguished from day.[12]
While fasting from dawn until sunset, Muslims refrain from consuming food, drinking liquids, smoking, and engaging in sexual relations. Muslims are also instructed to refrain from sinful behavior that may negate the reward of fasting, such as false speech (insulting, backbiting, cursing, lying, etc.) and fighting.[13] Food and drinks are served daily, before dawn and after sunset, referred to as Suhoor and Iftar respectively.[14][15] Spiritual rewards (thawab) for fasting are also believed to be multiplied within the month of Ramadan.[16] Fasting for Muslims during Ramadan typically includes the increased offering of salat (prayers), recitation of theQuran[17][18] and an increase of doing good deeds and charity.


Chapter 2, Verse 185, of the Quran states:
The month of Ramadan is that in which was revealed the Quran; a guidance for mankind, and clear proofs of the guidance, and the criterion (of right and wrong). And whosoever of you is present, let him fast the month, and whosoever of you is sick or on a journey, a number of other days. Allah desires for you ease; He desires not hardship for you; and that you should complete the period, and that you should magnify Allah for having guided you, and that perhaps you may be thankful.[Quran 2:185]
It is believed that the Quran was first revealed to Muhammad during the month of Ramadan which has been referred to as the "best of times". The first revelation was sent down on Laylat al-Qadr (The night of Power) which is one of the five odd nights of the last ten days of Ramadan.[19] According to hadith, all holy scriptures were sent down during Ramadan. The tablets of Ibrahim, the Torah, the Psalms, the Gospel and the Quran were sent down on 1st, 6th, 12th, 13th[note 2] and 24th Ramadan respectively.[20]
According to the Quran, fasting was also obligatory for prior nations, and is a way to attain taqwa, fear of God.[21][Quran 2:183] God proclaimed to Muhammad that fasting for His sake was not a new innovation in monotheism, but rather an obligation practiced by those truly devoted to the oneness of God.[22] The pagans of Mecca also fasted, but only on tenth day of Muharram to expiate sins and avoid droughts.[23]
The ruling to observe fasting during Ramadan was sent down 18 months after Hijra, during the month of Sha'ban in the second year of Hijra in 624 CE.[20]
Abu Zanad, an Arabic writer from Iraq who lived after the founding of Islam, in around 747 CE, wrote that at least oneMandaean community located in al-Jazira (modern northern Iraq) observed Ramadan before converting to Islam.[24][not in citation given]
According to Philip Jenkins, Ramadan comes "from the strict Lenten discipline of the Syrian churches".[25][dubious ]However, this suggestion is based on the orientalist idea that the Qur'an itself has Syrian origins, which was refuted by Muslim academics such as M. Al-Azami.[26]

Important dates[edit]

The beginning and end of Ramadan are determined by the lunar Islamic calendar.


Ramadan beginning dates between Gregorian years 1938 and 2038.
Hilāl (the crescent) is typically a day (or more) after the astronomical new moon. Since the new moon marks the beginning of the new month, Muslims can usually safely estimate the beginning of Ramadan.[27] However, to many Muslims, this is not in accordance with authenticated Hadiths stating that visual confirmation per region is recommended. The consistent variations of a day have existed since the time of Muhammad.[28]

Night of Power[edit]

Laylat al-Qadr, which in Arabic means "the night of power" or "the night of decree", is considered the holiest night of the year.[29][30] This is the night in which Muslims believe the first revelation of the Quran was sent down to Muhammad stating that this night was "better than one thousand months [of proper worship], as stated in Chapter 97:3 of the Qu'ran.
Also, generally, Laylat al-Qadr is believed to have occurred on an odd-numbered night during the last ten days of Ramadan, i.e., the night of the 21st, 23rd, 25th, 27th or 29th. The Dawoodi Bohra Community believe that the 23rd night is laylat al Qadr.[31] [32]


The holiday of Eid al-Fitr (Arabic:عيد الفطر) marks the end of Ramadan and the beginning of the next lunar month, Shawwal. This first day of the following month is declared after another crescent new moon has been sighted or the completion of 30 days of fasting if no visual sighting is possible due to weather conditions. This first day of Shawwal is called Eid al-Fitr. Eid al-Fitr may also be a reference towards the festive nature of having endured the month of fasting successfully and returning to the more natural disposition (fitra) of being able to eat, drink and resume intimacy with spouses during the day..[33]

Religious practices[edit]

Azim Azimzade. Ramadan of the poor people. 1938
The common practice during Ramadan is fasting from dawn to sunset. The pre-dawn meal before the fast is called the suhur, while the meal at sunset that breaks the fast is the iftar. Considering the high diversity of the global Muslim population, it is impossible to describe typical suhur or iftar meals.
Muslims also engage in increased prayer and charity during Ramadan. Ramadan is also a month where Muslims try to practice increased self-discipline. This is motivated by the Hadith, especially in Al-Bukhari[34] and Muslim,[35] that "When Ramadan arrives, the gates of Paradise are opened and the gates of hell are locked up and devils are put in chains."[36]


Ramadan is a time of spiritual reflection, improvement and increased devotion and worship. Muslims are expected to put more effort into following the teachings of Islam. The fast (sawm) begins at dawn and ends at sunset. In addition to abstaining from eating and drinking, Muslims also increase restraint, such as abstaining from sexual relations[2] and generally sinful speech and behavior. The act of fasting is said to redirect the heart away from worldly activities, its purpose being to cleanse the soul by freeing it from harmful impurities. Ramadan also teaches Muslims how to better practice self-discipline, self-control,[37] sacrifice, and empathy for those who are less fortunate; thus encouraging actions of generosity and compulsory charity (zakat).[38]
It becomes compulsory for Muslims to start fasting when they reach puberty, so long as they are healthy and sane, and have no disabilities or illnesses. Many children endeavour to complete as many fasts as possible as practice for later life.
Exemptions to fasting are travel, menstruation, severe illness, pregnancy, and breastfeeding. However, many Muslims with medical conditions insist on fasting to satisfy their spiritual needs, although it is not recommended by the hadith. Professionals should closely monitor such individuals who decide to persist with fasting.[39] Those who were unable to fast still must make up the days missed later.[40]


Each day, before dawn, Muslims observe a pre-fast meal called the suhur. After stopping a short time before dawn, Muslims begin the first prayer of the day, Fajr.[41][42] At sunset, families hasten for the fast-breaking meal known as iftar.


In the evening, dates are usually the first food to break the fast; according to tradition, Muhammad broke fast with three dates. Following that, Muslims generally adjourn for the Maghrib prayer, the fourth of the five daily prayers, after which the main meal is served.[43]
Social gatherings, many times in a buffet style, are frequent at iftar. Traditional dishes are often highlighted, including traditional desserts, and particularly those made only during Ramadan. Water is usually the beverage of choice, but juice and milk are also often available, as are soft drinks and caffeinated beverages.[39]
In the Middle East, the iftar meal consists of water, juices, dates, salads and appetizers, one or more main dishes, and various kinds of desserts. Usually, the dessert is the most important part during iftar. Typical main dishes are lamb stewed with wheat berries, lamb kebabs with grilled vegetables, or roast chicken served with chickpea-studded rice pilaf. A rich dessert, such as luqaimat, baklava or kunafeh (a buttery, syrup-sweetened kadaifi noodle pastry filled with cheese), concludes the meal.[44]
Over time, iftar has grown into banquet festivals. This is a time of fellowship with families, friends and surrounding communities, but may also occupy larger spaces at masjid or banquet halls for 100 or more diners.[45]


Men praying during Ramadan at the Shrine of Hazrat Ali or "Blue Mosque" in Mazar-i-Sharif,Afghanistan
Charity is very important in Islam, and even more so during Ramadan. Zakāt, often translated as "the poor-rate", is obligatory as one of the pillars of Islam; a fixed percentage of the person's savings is required to be given to the poor. Sadaqah is voluntary charity in giving above and beyond what is required from the obligation of zakāt. In Islam, all good deeds are more handsomely rewarded during Ramadan than in any other month of the year. Consequently, many will choose this time to give a larger portion, if not all, of the zakāt that they are obligated to give. In addition, many will also use this time to give a larger portion of sadaqah in order to maximize the reward that will await them at the Last Judgment.[citation needed]

Nightly prayers[edit]

Tarawih (Arabicتراويح‎‎) refers to extra prayers performed by Muslims at night in the Islamic month of Ramadan. Contrary to popular belief, they are not compulsory.[46] However, many Muslims pray these prayers in the evening during Ramadan. Some scholars[who?] maintain that Tarawih is neither fard or a Sunnah, but is the preponed Tahajjud (night prayer) prayer shifted to post-Isha' for the ease of believers. But a majority of Sunni scholars regard the Tarawih prayers as Sunnat al-Mu'akkadah, a salaat that was performed by the Islamic prophet Muhammad very consistently.

Recitation of the Quran[edit]

In addition to fasting, Muslims are encouraged to read the entire Quran. Some Muslims perform the recitation of the entire Quran by means of special prayers, called Tarawih. These voluntary prayers are held in the mosques every night of the month, during which a whole section of the Quran (juz', which is 1/30 of the Quran) is recited. Therefore, the entire Quran would be completed at the end of the month. Although it is not required to read the whole Quran in the Tarawih prayers, it is common.

Cultural practices[edit]

Striking the bedug in Indonesia
Fanous Ramadandecorations in Cairo,Egypt
Ramadan in the Old City of Jerusalem
In some Muslim countries today, lights are strung up in public squares, and across city streets, to add to the festivities of the month. Lanterns have become symbolic decorations welcoming the month of Ramadan. In a growing number of countries, they are hung on city streets.[47][48][49]The tradition of lanterns as a decoration becoming associated with Ramadan is believed to have originated during theFatimid Caliphate primarily centered in Egypt, where Caliphal-Mu'izz li-Din Allah was greeted by people holding lanterns to celebrate his ruling. From that time, lanterns were used to light mosques and houses throughout the capital city of Cairo. Shopping malls, places of business, and people's homes can be seen with stars and crescents and various lighting effects, as well.
As the nation with the world's largest Muslim population, Indonesia has diverse Ramadan traditions. On the island of Java, many Javanese Indonesians bathe in holy springs to prepare for fasting, a ritual known as Padusa. The city of Semarang marks the beginning of Ramadan with the Dugderan carnival, which involves parading the Warak ngendog, a horse-dragon hybrid creature allegedly inspired by the Buraq. In the Chinese-influenced capital city of Jakarta, fire crackers were traditionally used to wake people up for morning prayer, until the 19th century. Towards the end of Ramadan, most employees receive a one-month bonus known as Tunjangan Hari Raya. Certain kinds of food are especially popular during Ramadan, such as beef in Aceh, and snails in Central Java. The iftar meal is announced every evening by striking the bedug, a giant drum, in the mosque.
Common greetings during Ramadan are "Ramadan Mubarak" or "Ramadan Kareem", which wish the recipient a blessed or generous Ramadan.[50]

Penalties for infraction[edit]

In some Muslim countries, failing to fast or the open flouting of such behavior during Ramadan is considered a crime and is prosecuted as such. For instance, in Algeria, in October 2008 the court of Biskra condemned six people to four years in prison and heavy fines.[51]
In Kuwait, according to law number 44 of 1968, the penalty is a fine of no more than 100 Kuwaiti dinars, or jail for no more than one month, or both penalties, for those seen eating, drinking or smoking during Ramadan daytime.[52][53] In some places in the U.A.E., eating or drinking in public during the daytime of Ramadan is considered a minor offence and would be punished by up to 150 hours of community service.[54] In neighbouring Saudi Arabia, described by The Economist as taking Ramadan "more seriously than anywhere else",[55] there are harsher punishments, whereas in Malaysia, there are no such punishments.
In 2014 in KermanshahIran, a non-Muslim was sentenced to having his lips burnt with a cigarette and five Muslims were publicly flogged with 70 stripes for eating during Ramadan.[56][unreliable source?]

Other legal issues[edit]

Some countries have laws that amend work schedules during Ramadan. Under U.A.E. labor law, the maximum working hours are to be 6 hours per day and 36 hours per week. QatarOmanBahrain and Kuwait have similar laws.[57]
In Egypt, alcohol sales are banned during Ramadan.[58]


Ramadan fasting is safe for healthy people, but those with medical conditions should seek medical advice.[59] The fasting period is usually associated with modest weight loss, but the weight tends to return afterwards.[60]

Renal disease[edit]

A review of the literature by an Iranian group suggested fasting during Ramadan might produce renal injury in patients with moderate (GFR <60 a="" href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kidney_disease" min="" ml="" nbsp="" or="" style="background: none; color: #0b0080; text-decoration: none;" title="Kidney disease" worse="">kidney disease
, but was not injurious to renal transplant patients with good function or most stone forming patients.[61]

Crime rates[edit]

The correlation of Ramadan with crime rates is mixed: some statistics show that crime rates drop during Ramadan, while others show that it rises. Decreases in crime rates have been reported by the police in some cities in Turkey (Istanbul[62]and Konya[63]) and the Eastern province of Saudi Arabia.[64] A 2012 study showed that crime rates decreased in Iran during Ramadan, and that decrease was statistically significant.[65] A 2005 study found that there was a decrease in assault, robbery and alcohol-related crimes during Ramadan in Saudi Arabia, but only the decrease in alcohol-related crimes was statistically significant.[66] Increases in crime rates during Ramadan have been reported in Turkey,[67] Jakarta,[68][69][70]parts of Algeria,[71] Yemen[72] and Egypt.[73]
Various mechanisms have been proposed for the effect of Ramadan on crime:
  • An Iranian cleric argues that fasting during Ramadan makes people less likely to commit crimes due to spiritual reasons.[74] Gamal al-Banna argues that fasting can stress people out, which can make them more likely to commit crimes. He criticized Muslims who commit crimes while fasting during Ramadan as "fake and superficial".[73]
  • Police in Saudi Arabia attributed a drop in crime rates to the "spiritual mood prevalent in the country".[64]
  • In JakartaIndonesiapolice say that the traffic due to 7 million people leaving the city to celebrate Eid al-Fitr results in an increase in street crime. As a result, police deploy an additional 7,500 personnel.[70]
  • During Ramadan, millions of pilgrims enter Saudi Arabia to visit Mecca. According to the Yemen Times, such pilgrims are usually charitable, and consequently smugglers traffic children in from Yemen to beg on the streets of Saudi Arabia.[72]

Ramadan in polar regions[edit]

During 2010 Middle East negotiations in the United States,Hosni Mubarak and Benjamin Netanyahu check their watches to see if the sun has set.
The length of the dawn to sunset time varies in different parts of the world according to summer or winter solstices of the sun. Most Muslims fast for 11–16 hours during Ramadan. However, in polar regions, the period between dawn and sunset may exceed 22 hours in summers. For example, in 2014, Muslims in Reykjavik, Iceland, and Trondheim, Norway, fasted almost 22 hours, while Muslims in Sydney, Australia, fasted for only about 11 hours. Muslims in areas where continuous night or day is observed during Ramadan follow the fasting hours in the nearest city where fasting is observed at dawn and sunset. Alternatively, Muslims may follow Mecca time.[75][76][77]

Employment during Ramadan[edit]

Muslims will continue to work during Ramadan. The prophet Muhammad said that it is important to keep a balance between worship and work. In some Muslim countries, such as Oman, however, working hours are shortened during Ramadan.[78][79] It is often recommended that working Muslims inform their employers if they are fasting, given the potential for the observance to impact performance at work.[80] The extent to which Ramadan observers are protected by religious accommodation varies by country. Policies putting them at a disadvantage compared to other employees have been met with discrimination claims in the UK and the US.[81][82][83]

This will not be the only festival of the month, there will be another festival though. I will post it soon as well, about the festival too. 

There's recently a bombing case again in the UK. That's sad to hear and I would like to express my condolences to the victims. As of update currently from CNN, you can see :- http://edition.cnn.com/2017/05/25/europe/manchester-terror-attack-uk/ = What's wrong with the world right now with all these killing ? Let's have a peaceful world please, there's too many death news around this year and I really dislike listening to it. That's really a sad world, what has human became? Why WAR? Why shed blood? Why not peace? Where the human wiseness and all? Where has all these gone too. Sad world, sad place. Sad to know.
Working hard to stop my bad habit and finish off my sort out. Please help me. Less outings! I need to save money and go out less. Need to finish my tasks as well. GRRR! Stop going out babe!