31 December 2015

The End. Page 365 of 365.

It's the end of the chapter of my storybook. Reached Page 365 of 365. It's time to move on to the next book of my life and I wish my 2016 book would be a really good one. In a blink of eye, my story has ended. How fast time passed with up and down of life. I have been through so much in the year of 2015! From friends, family and work, every angle. I am glad I have gone through it. I became different. I have changed. Something that has happened which can't be explained. I wish to know the reason but no one is there to answer to the questions. I only can move on, be positive and fight till the end on behalf. I miss him, I miss my dad. I can't image my first birthday without my dad. I dare not look at his pictures cause I would always reminisce the past, those good days together, the sacrifice and love, my amazing parents that I would do anything for them, even giving up my life if I have too. I learnt about people mostly. Good one stays, while some leaves. Part of life. I am thankful to those who has lend a hand, sincerely. I will try my best to heal more with the forth coming years. Time heals and I hope so. Time to move on. 

I began blogging months ago. After I have settled down a little. I have made the blog as a friend of mine after I lost the trust. I am phobic over trust from that day onwards. Having much good friends but no longer close ones anymore. I still hope to be able to find one some day. I believe there's still good and sincere people out day. Probably, I would need to wait for faith to bring us together. I don't need many close friends just a few would be nice enough. 

So much plans to carry on, I have been saying this over and over. Next week everything would be back on track and time to carry on the plans. I need to budget my transport which means I need to walk back home next week on wards. I no longer able to study Chinese at work but Korean. Guess, weekend is the only time now. I am gonna have lesser time now and time to utilise my time well. 

I wanna dip dye my hair this weekend before the saloons get busy but I am looking at the right one to go to with reasonable price too. Seems really hard to find one! I wanna try Korean saloons but I am afraid that it would be expensive. I also thought of tattooing my eyebrowns but I am scared that it wouldn't fit my face cause it's gonna be permanent and it's really expensive too! Let's colour my hair and do the clothings shopping for CNY that's it. I can't spend too much! TT

Hope to be able to complete my tasks on time. No outing on weekdays at all!


THE END. 

PAGE 365 OF 365. 

30 December 2015

Steady and Detailed

I have been rushing to finish my studies for two days for Korean that I neglected my Chinese studies. At the same time, my Chinese class is off for two weeks and would resume next week onwards. I wonder how am I gonna replace the class now since I do not have more off days! At least, I can get back on track, revise slowly and steady during weekdays for my Korean for 2 solid weeks before moving to online materials. Can't wait to change my methods soon. I can start leaving my weekends to my Chinese study. My fun would end this weekend. The first weekend of 2016! Am I looking forward? A little maybe? What's my 2016 resolutions? I am not telling =P But hopefully a good and fruitful year ahead. Way better off than 2015. One of the toughest point of my life and I managed to go through it. 

Lately, I am not achieving it well the target. Especially this week that my big day is approaching and I am giving myself excuses! This is really bad! I hope to resume totally after this weekend. Back on track and to fully achieve it before lunar year! I CAN DO THIS! I need to start saving up for clothes and hair do! Oh gosh, money flying away every time during the early year. I also need to prepare to keep in touch with my supervisor in the UK and I do not know how to begin with! I need her recommendation letter for my scholarship and maybe masters as well! Please give me luck that she remembers me well! :( I also planned to register for TOPIK I, maybe. I wanna try out the exam. I don't really wanna skip to TOPIK II. I am scared I can't cope and I just wanna feel the Korean language exam environment first before going to something harder. Oh gosh, so much plans to catch up next week onwards! Let's enjoy till the max till this weekend before getting really busy with dreams and hopes! =3

Today is my last day of work in 2015! Apparently, my leave is approved on the last day of the year! Amazingly I don't have plans on eve or new year this time round, sadly. I wish I am on a vacation instead and I am hoping next end year I wouldn't be around in Malaysia anymore! Fingers crossed. 

I don't know if you're sincere but I am. It's up to you. I don't want to put high hopes as well. The bigger the disappointment. Just let it be. If I am not the first person who invite, I will fulfil the task. That's it. Don't wanna think about it anymore. 

ONE MORE DAY TILL 2016! 

29 December 2015

ADD ON not SUBTRACTING

This is crazy for three continuous days I off my plan and this is so freaking bad! I am suppose to stop already. New Year is approaching and I want to be at least close to it! :( I need to so please stop! No more anymore. No more. 

Make it work, I should sleep. 

28 December 2015

Two days OFF

Two days OFF and I am enough to be screwed up! I really hate this but yeah, I really wanna use foul language in my blog and I am trying my level best to refrain myself from using it. I wanna achieve close to it at least before 2016, in just a few days! This weekend would be my last long weekend. Oh boy, am I ready for 2016? I am not sure BUT I need to! 

I am soon to release my 2016 resolution soon. So much to prepare and do. I wish to fulfil at least half of 2016 resolutions! Time for some action next week. The new fresh and awesome year! 

The next thing that I really would like to do is to study Korean language in South Korea. In fact, some thing that I would like to do since long ago! :( 


27 December 2015

The end last weekend of 2015

This weekend would be the last weekend of 2015! Look at how time passed! So scary. Which means new year is approaching! oh boy. I feel old year by year! I had two days off this weekend which is enough to destroy the results. I am getting back on track on Monday with extreme. I need to be close to result at least! I hate this. I hate frus so much about it. 

I hope 2016 and the future years would be a splendid years ahead. It will. I have passed through the toughest point of life, partially. 

THE BEST IS COMING. IT WILL BE. POSITVE. 

26 December 2015

The End of Christmas Day

It's already the end of Christmas Day! It has been a day though. Woke up right away, get ready and went for lunch with bunch of university friends. Japanese food, has been some time! No one ever like to accompany me to eat Japanese food in the house and finally, some good one. Loving it. Later that, rushed home for the second round. Happy Hour. I didn't really drink though. Don't feel like too. Played the cards again with the friends. Interesting though. I wanna try playing Big Two game with bunch of experts with higher speed! 

I gotta say I actually love the street in Changkat though it's a little dirty. Oh well, it's in Malaysia. What's more can I expect. I felt like I am back in South Korea at some point. Oh gosh, proved that I miss South Korea so much. I would really want to get my ass back there. Hopefully, there's some opportunity coming. Please. 

It's a call off today. I wanna rest a day as I am going again probably the whole day tomorrow again. Tiring but some fun. 

25 December 2015

Merry Christmas 2015!

It's Christmas guys! Time passes so fast, 2015 is coming to an end and Christmas is here! Sadly, I spent my Christmas eve at home. The least, I am with my family. Today I will be out the whole day. Guess, it's the way to spend my Christmas day! I am suppose to sleep now too but I can't resists myself to watch my dramas. I am getting the habit to study Chinese during the weekend. In fact, when I am suppose to, I was procrastinating so much! I wasted a day just like that! 

Towards end of the year, everyone is either travelling aboard, celebrating festive seasons with love ones or friends. I wanna travel too. I wish I can earn more money to travel. My birthday is approaching which means I am getting older a year again, sadly. 

Happy a very MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!


24 December 2015

Christmas Eve

Hello! What's your plan for Christmas eve? I don't have any plans though. It's gonna be packed with people and I am lazy to plan out. It's public holiday and I am sure every where is packed with people and things are expensive during public holidays! I wanted to go to Zouk but I can't find any companion. Oh well, just stay home and rest since I am not perfectly well. My addiction of staying out which means I need to spend more! TT

I finished revised sooner than I thought. More time for my Chinese since I would be out this weekend and I don't think I have time or energy to revise during then. 

I promised to attend. I want to face it. I want to challenge it. This is it, man. I am breaking the point! Bring it ON!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE! 

23 December 2015

Sick Season

I feel bad that almost every month that I need to claim for medical. If it's not because of the MC I wouldn't want to claim though. I don't like that I am always not well too. I want to be as strong as I use too as well. In fact, I don't feel like going to work tomorrow though. I still feel not well but I need to since there is so much to settle on behalf. Frustrating. If I can it would be a week of almost for me. Too bad. I would need to force myself to go. 

I have been destroying my results pretty much lately. Getting the praises doesn't mean it's done. There's still lots more to go. I need to get 5 more before my birthday and the complete one by next month. Should be able to achieve by then and I would stop everything and begin the shaping! Oh hell yeah, please make it work this time. It has been so long. Age is catching up not freeing me at all. 2016 is a BOOM year to be! Needs too ! POSITIVE!

I need to stop thinking about it really. The matter keeps playing in my mind lately. I am thinking too much. Just think about how to make your resolution into reality next year! 

Not too late but 

Happy Winter Solstice Festival!

22 December 2015

Sincere

I don't want to be the first anymore. I don't want to feel like I am annoyed. Sigh. Caught with a cold is not a good sign for me! I don't want a whole package this time! I have lots of long weekends to spend! Spare me! I wanna finish my studies before Christmas too! Hmphh! I wanna go to Zouk on Christmas eve but I can't seem to get anyone to tag along with me sadly. When I wanna go there's no one, but when I do not want too, there's tones of them who wanna go, ironically. 

Thinking about it makes me feel more stress. I don't wanna think about it anymore. Let it naturally be. That's it. Positively. 


21 December 2015

Han Jong-Young

Lately I am into this dude Han Jong-Young but sadly he's really young. A new rookie actor from Valid Love but he manage to caught my attention from Make a Women Cry. So good looking. He made me feel old now! He's acting is pretty good for a rookie! Thumbs up but there's more room for improvement! 



Finally I am able to start up some of my drama lists! Cleared one long drama! Next one to go. I really should be sleeping though. Felt like as if it's already holiday! LOL!


20 December 2015

Life with interesting people

Maybe I shouldn't have drank two bottles today with my body condition cause now I am wide awake after a short nap and feeling sensitive. I usually sleep soundly after a few bottles but today I feel a little not well after just two bottles. Ahhh, regretting it. 

Today was the last meet up for the Korean-English exchange for the year of 2015. I always think that I should have joined this meet up as early as possible. Learned Korean for two years and only now I get to brush up. However,  recalling back those periods, I did not actually have time and mood to attend? My dad was sick. I have always been worry, there were no space for me to do anything else. Maybe I could have known everyone better and some things wouldn't have happened. For those times, I have came across with all kinds of people. Really, during your darkness point of life, you will meet all kinds of people. But this time, it's a little different. Some thing that I have not experience as of yet. I hope my instinct tells me wrong sometimes, I do. It's frustrating when it's right. I can't figure out what I did. I always put my heart in making friends as much as I could but sometimes it's out of your control. But yeah, people always get back what they did. Karma? That's what I learned for the whole graceful period of worries. You don't need to pay back the bad others has done, in fact you don't need too. When the time comes, it will. Do good as much as you could, really. I have been through much to know this. My life has been interesting so far. I hope the coming period would be promising. 

New year is coming up. Hopefully I am able to meet better people and fruitful future ahead. I wanna feel as positive as I could. It would be a busy year. Lots of plans and resolution to catch up! I always feel better writing out my feelings instead of talking out to someone else. I guess this is the only I am able to express myself now. I decided to stop blogging for years after I have graduated from high school. But ever since my late father left the world, I know I can't just keep to myself. I need to blast it out and now, blog has became my best friend. Probably. the coming days I would blog even more often as of now. 

Cheer Up and Be Positive! :)

19 December 2015

A break from Social

I just felt so lazy to social today. Went for a date with mum. It has been some time since I am always out during the weekend lately. Korean food finally. After for so long. Another meet up today. Hopefully I am feeling better to social. I won't miss this meet up. Probably I should attend more often with the Japanese meet up too. 

I am thinking what should I do for Christmas. Sadly, I do not have plans yet. Not sure if I wanna go for party during Christmas's eve. Maybe I would? I am not sure. I feel like too though.

As Lunar Year approaching, recollection of my memories with my dad. Something I have never really much predicted would happen. I always try to keep my self busy or my mind occupied not to think about it. It's over. I don't want to think so much. I don't want too. 



This song, Dance With My Father by Luther Vandross made my spilled tears reminiscing my past with him. Guess it's just life. People come and go but never thought it would be so soon.  My future Lunar new year, missing a member. I need to learn to adapt to it over time. 


18 December 2015

A week Break

Today was suppose to be my rest day but I still receive tones of messages about work. Oh well. I don't feel perfectly well today. Guess I need to skip today's meet up though I feel like going too. At least, a week break maybe. Since I will be out the whole day during the weekend too. 

Christmas is around the corner! OMG. Time passes so fast but this time I can feel the Christmas aura! So happening. Haven't got the change to see any Christmas decoration yet! HMMPH! Hope to see them this weekend.


17 December 2015

Bits more to GO

Finally, I manage to finish the textbooks in a niche of time. I am so into languages lately. Practising two languages at once and improving my supposingly native language. I need to make sure myself, progressing further and better ! I bought lots of books during big bad wolf 2015! Hopefully to be able to read them next week. and lately adult colouring books are so common, too bad I do not have the patience nor time! Maybe I should try out this Sunday if I have time but I doubt. 

I was suppose to finish something at work by this week which I did not. Maybe I need to rush out by today for them. Oh gosh, I know I have lost it but I need to be motivated and patience. 

People changed as you go down the road, it's whether people turned good or bad or moderately both cause everyone will grow old and mature eventually. The only thing you should be concern about now is, adapt to the changes with dignity and wisely. There's always a silver lining to it. Be positive and good and smart. Adapt well is a good thing as well. 

Alright, I really should be sleeping! 

GOOD NIGHT WORLD! It's my off day again tomorrow 

16 December 2015

Conversation Exchange

Lately I have been doing a lot of conversation exchange for Korean, in hope to improve my Korean. While for Chinese, I guess I need to do more chats in Chinese with friends since most of my friends are Chinese speakers. I need to fullfill my 2016 resolution. To be fluent, hope to or must to be.

I am not sure if I have the patient to wait till end of the year with Plan B but of course I hope Plan A works. Lot's of actions to take next month onwards. I hope I can make it. Another three more weeks and I am busy. Let's work things out man! 

I am tired and sleepy and yet I hope to finish all my Korean studies on weekdays weekly, Hope fully I can concentrate my Chinese on weekends. Hope this plan will be successfully till end of the year. Till I change my Korean study methods. Hope these methods works. I really start up Japanese study but I am not sure if learning 3 languages at once is a good thing. I feel frustrated unable to communicate with my Japanese friends! TT

15 December 2015

Dream

I have been dreaming quite a lot these few days! Now, I am really tired though. I hope I can finish every thing before weekend. There's so much activities going on. I have a new plan for year 2016 for my languages study. Hopefully it will improve them. I really wish to speak fluently at least next year and able to read and write as well. That's my resolution for 2016, one of them though. There's definitely still more to it. 

Nothing much today for the day. 

Happy working! 

14 December 2015

Deep Shit Man

I am so in deep this, just a day I let it loose and it's a killer enough, Feeling depressed now. And it's important for this coming weekend! Regardless, I need to achieve it before the time comes. I need to. I hate it man. When what the comments said was true. 

Yesterday was a tiring day. went all the way to Bentong with my three hours sleep. But it was still alright. It has been so long since I had three meal a day. And on the way there, met a scumbag wantan. That's why the dislike exists. Sit nice car but with low ethics and morality. That's why this country people are, like....... I really wanna get out of the pathetic place. I hate the fact that I am here. 

The happy thing is, we had something different here. Not really my thing but it was quite okay though. Something that I have not really been doing much with the aunties. 

Later that day, I went for a movie with le family! We watched Krampus! I wanted to watch this movie since it was released and I finally did! Wouldn't say it's really good but it's really meaningful movie to remind us to get together during festivals. Same as the Chinese Lunar Year. I actually think it's important for family to get together too!


13 December 2015

Japanese- English Language Exchange Pot Luck

Yesterday was my second time with the Japanese-English Language Exchange meet up and yeah I am having a hard time cause I don't speak Japanese. I really wanna take up the language! I find it quite hard to communicate with some friends who can't speak English really well. I really wanna communicate with them in Japanese! I feel bad. But yeah, I was a helper for my Japanese Chef today. I forgot to take a picture of him cooking but yeah, he seems to be a good cook for today! It was boring at first, but as time passed by, it gets a little fun when I try to mingle around a little with my so limited Japanese. Get to know some interesting people. 


Here are the foods, there's more later that but this is the only picture I took for the day. The good was quite okay though. Good cooks I shall say. Malaysia has so many people who speaks Japanese but not Korean. I think it's easier to learn Japanese here than Korean, sadly. Still, I wanna master these two both including Chinese! 

I need to wake up early for another round today. Another hectic weekend. 

12 December 2015

Countless Meet Ups

Lately, I think better not to say it's lately. I have been actively attending for meet ups every week and I got to say it's fun at times and boring at times. I enjoyed it because I get to know different people from different countries and I am able to understand their culture. It's fun though. People can be really interesting at times. I get to know more friends, new friends. I get to improve my English and learn new languages! This is actually enjoyable. 

I am still wondering if I want to attend for tonight's potluck with the Japanese speaking. I wanna go but I am scared I would be left out since I don't speak Japanese at all! I can't even communicate with the. I feel so sad. That put my determination to learn Japanese at the same time now. Which means I would be learning 3 languages at a time, how awesome is that! :) I just love languages! I hope to learn more European languages in future instead!

I have much to blog about my life lately and I am enjoying it. I wanna write up about my life day by day so when I get old, I can recall some of my good memories maybe. I try to blog as much happy moments as I could. Life is short, work hard but also play hard. I mean it's real. Really. Do it.

SAYONARA ! 

11 December 2015

Pen Pal

I have been trying to made a few pen pal friends for a Korean and Chinese language exchange. Hopefully I can maintain some friends for long. One thing about pen pal, we lost contact pretty fast. That's why I prefer to have real life friends to exchange language. Finding a way to get myself to know more friends who speak Korean. Chinese is definitely easy to find here since most of my friends around me are Chinese educated. I really wanna improve these two languages of mine by end of next year! Much to do! :)

I wanna go for the potluck tomorrow but I have no one to go with. Let's see tonight if I can go with for tomorrow. There's so many Japanese here. Even locals who's learning Japanese. When is it gonna be my turn? There's so many languages I wanna learn. Hopefully in 2017 I can take up Japanese and German! :) 

It's my off day today, in fact the whole Friday till end of the year! Need to enjoy my long weekend till the max. 

10 December 2015

Longest Night Market with le Friends

After a long day at work, decided to go to night market with le friends. My main purpose to find that tibit but I can't find it even it's so long. That is so sad for such a long market. I really dislike crowded places but I am forced to go just to find that but eventually I did not see any. Frustrated. Meet my friends along the way. That's such a coincidence.

I am afraid. After knowing some nice people, they would leave me again. I just wish at least a few could stay and we can be closer. I feel so emotional suddenly. I really wish I can get the scholarship there. Really do. My dream. I hope to keep in touch with my supervisor in UK next month for the recommendation letter. I hope she remembers me! 

I need to motivate myself to work. I need to achieve the target this week at least. For next week. 

9 December 2015

Fingers Crossed

Hopefully when faith brought us to know each other, this faith would last for long enough. I hope it's coming for all this time. Have been longing for some time. Not too much hope but chase towards it a little. 

Still searching, still finding and still looking. I will find it soon. Please. 

8 December 2015

Passion

I am finding my way to my passion, will I ever make it? I need too.

Time to resume Korean study, I am done with the Chinese notes.

Not letting myself loose anymore too even on weekends. This is crazy!

7 December 2015

No More

No more anymore. The person gave me inspiration to continue with more effort. I need to achieve what I need to. Time is ticking. Few more weeks there would be lots of things that I need to start and plan. Hectic ! :(


6 December 2015

Meet Up till Hang out till Morning Breakfast

Yesterday was an interesting day. Did not had much sleep. Forced myself to go for class. Finish up, lunch with mum and boom, get really for the language meet up! Today there's many interesting people came and yeah! It was really fun! He was there too, but I didn't talk to him. That felt awkward though. He din even said bye when he left. I guess he for hurt. I feel sorry. Cause he's really.... I feel bad saying it. Forget it, it's over. After the meet up we had dinner, as usual, and still I did not get to talk to the person I want to, all the time! and yea, the weird girl came. Every time when she eats I really wanna laugh out loud but I resists. Can anyone be this weird at this age. Gosh life is interesting, probably the best thing about her is multi-lingual. Personality? I am not sure. Oh well, none of my business. 

After the dinner, we went for another round at Shanga-rila Hotel. This environment was nice, the singing was nice, the drink was nice! It was a good place but a little pricey though the drinks. Out of the sudden, we decided to go for a karaoke session! And this is where we got a little close. Such a spontaneous decision! Don't happen often especially with someone you just got close. I shared something that I did not really did which I do not know why but yeah. It was a fun night with fun people~ ! I am glad I made the decision to join this group and the other as well. I had a blast! I hope in future there's more of this kind. And always, when I get to know nice people, they tend to leave. I hope they will be back and we can get closer and closer! :( Fingers crossed. 

Sleep for only 4 hours, I need to be out again. Awesome weekend definitely. 

5 December 2015

Embarassing

I felt like yesterday was quite an embarrassing day. Maybe cause I am too tired though. I was suppose to take a nap but I did not. So yeah. I wasn't quite myself yesterday! Out for almost the whole day. Class in the morning. Even work calls during my off day is pathetic. Later that, I need to go for a meet up! What a day! This time there's more foreigner from a different country. So unique! I wanted to know more about the Japanese comedian but I did not get to talk to him much. Hopefully he will come more and I would have the chance to talk to him more. :( 

Today I will have another meet up! Hopefully today's will be fruitful. And yeah I have to go for a class later. Another full day! :( 

I will update more about the meet up once I am back. 

I need to finish my Chinese notes by tomorrow! :( 

4 December 2015

What If....

At times, I would wondered upon the days if he's still around. Will things be different, slightly from now? Whether it would be better, the same or worse? Sometimes, I still believe that I am still in the dream, but yeah, the truth is reality. I don't say much around me, I don't wanna remember nether to recall out. It's saddening. Well, this is life I guess. An early one.

Let's talk something promising. I am off today! But I need to attend two days straight class to replace for next week. Hopefully it would be a free week for next week! This week I am gonna be busy again! Schedule packed! Good thing or a bad thing? I hope it's good  though. 

Hopefully tonight's meeting there would be more people. Unlike last week's! So little people that I need to leave early to meet another group of friend. hehe. 

3 December 2015

Online Shopping

I have been doing lots of online shopping lately. and I am gonna stop for now. I have spent too much! Oh gosh, since when this habit came? I wasn't so before this! I need to save up, remember? I am waiting for many items now. Really need to stop the shopping habit that just came up.

I have one item delayed. Guess I have to call up later!

I am off tomorrow! woots!!


2 December 2015

1 December 2015

Officially December

Oh gosh, it's already the first day of December ! 2016 is approaching! This is so scary! Which means I am gonna be an older a year in just a month more! OMG! Wonder how will it be like on my day. I wonder what I am gonna do for New Year along with my birthday! Also, I haven't got any plans for Christmas too! I am just really curious about the ending of my 2015. Will be awesome ? :(

The passion has gradually decreased. My mind is all about finding ways to leave the country or ways to earn extra income to support it. I know it's gonna be hard if I would need to go with this decision but there's really no future here. I am not someone who born in a silver spoon. Guess it would be a tough and longer way for me. But I know if I continue to keep this faith and will, the hard work will definitely paid off. Strong and positive, I hope I can hold these till the achievement day. Really do. 

It's time to proceed. It's time to make plans work, it's time to move on with the goals. IT'S TIME. LET'S ROCK IT!